Beautiful

Did I tell you guys I went to the Beth Moore simulcast for her new book So Long Insecurity, a couple of weekends ago?

Well, I did, and it was great! Seriously, I love Beth Moore anyways but this simulcast was so powerful. I will admit I have not read the book yet (I hope to sometime soon, but ya'll know how the book reading has been going around here) but honestly just hearing her speak was so powerful I don't know if I need to.

You know for years now, probably 7 years to be exact, God has really been working in my heart on the subject of beauty and what I find beautiful (and what He finds beautiful). I, along with probably almost every other female I know, struggle with insecurity. I often put myself down for not being skinny enough, not looking just right, not being a good enough mom, for saying what I really think, and for well, a whole wheelbarrow load of other things. I can look at every woman around me and find all of the amazing qualities in them but lack to find them in myself. But like I said, God has been working in my heart for awhile.

I have seen where my idea and perception of beauty has changed over the years and I am so thankful for that. I still at times struggle - but each day I get a little bit better at taking the focus away from myself and turning it on Jesus - because really, that's what insecurity steals from us. Insecurity is selfish. It only see's itself. It doesn't remind you that God made you just the way he wanted you. It doesn't remind you that you are questioning God's authority and judgement when he created you. It only reminds you of yourself and how you'll never be _____ (insert: skinny, pretty, smart, etc.) enough.

And, you know what, this life isn't about me and honestly, who am I to question God why He made me the way I am?

Now, that doesn't mean I can't try to be a better version of myself but it does mean that I accept that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. It means that I try to find God's purpose in my life each day. And it means that the focus is off of ME and on GOD.

So anyways, I went to the simulcast and I was reminded of the many things I have been learning of the past 7 years. I left feeling refreshed and ready to take another step in the way the Lord is directing me and to encourage my friends that they too are BEAUTIFUL...

because each of you are beautiful and it's time to let go of the insecurities and time to embrace who you are!

...and sometimes you're just weird, but whateva ;)